21 Day - Day 1

9:30AM
Practiced Nauli and nadi shodana pranayama first thing this morning.
Old HS friend called this morning. Her son (my Godson) was accepted to SMC and UVM with great FA packages. She told me that I was a source of inspiration to her to guide her son through school to college. I felt very good about this, a little embarrassed, modest about my own achievements. But, happy that I provided an indirect "positive role model" all the same.
I did not see a police officer in a crosswalk today. I was distracted by pointing out the cars to my son. She was not in the cross walk, but on the side, waiting to cross. I need to be more aware.

11:30PM
I coveted my son's playgroup snack because I was "too busy" to pack one for myself. To steer my mind away from it, I practiced 3-lobed viloma pranayama.
I was irritated at a man for walking so slow and in my way at Costco. I was running late, but I knew it was not his fault. I just let my anger fill my thoughts.
I yelled out loud in the car, at a car in front of me for not paying attention to the signal. I immediately felt terrible because my youngest son was int eh car, and I try not to expel in from of them.
A few minutes later I slowed to let a man cross the street at the roundabout in Winooski.

4:20PM
Just spent over one hour playing with the kids. No phone, no TV, no computer.

7:25PM
On my way to yoga practice tonight I dwelled on a thought. A car had sped through our neighborhood earlier. I was angry at them, not even sure who it was. I had "daydreams" of what I would do if they had hit one of our kids. I should be blessed that my kids were not outside, but I still felt like the person needed to be scolded for excessive speeds.
Just finished asana. Very deep, I was very heavy in savasana. Also practiced meditation and chanting in class.

10:20PM
I am being accused of harboring a grudge. Someone has verbally "abused" me. And someone else is telling me to just look past it. The actual words said do not bother me. It is the manner in which they are said, and the fact that the abuser has no remorse. I am reminded of the Buddhist saying, "Treat those who are evil with disregard." I do not think this person is evil, but her actions certainly are not staying with the divine. I do not consider myself harboring a grudge, but merely treating her with disregard. Time to go do neti.