21 Day - Day 5

8:30AM
I have been thinking about my brother's girlfriend and her situation. I wish I had a better way to communicate with her. She complains often, and acts upset all of the time, at everything. Being around her, she makes me feel sorry for her, but then later I feel as though she needs to do more with herself to change her "unhappiness". She rarely acknowledges with someone has done something nice for her. This is an instance where I think about the satya 'rule of thumb' I posted. Before speaking, check:
Is it true?
Is it necessary?
Is it kind?

What I feel is truth to me. Is it necessary to talk to her? Maybe. But maybe it is better left unsaid for the sake of harmony. Is it kind...she may not perceive it as such, although understaning the truth, and study oneself will help put them in a better position later in life. If they are willing and open to listening. I do not believe she is ready. Nor ever will be.

11:30AM
Practiced nauli. Read an email about Moon Salutations. I tried them. Would love to try these tomorrow with the Girl Scouts, but I need to stick with things I already know well. I practiced it but I'm too cold now.

I have decided to take meditation off of my goal list. It's too hard to get through most of them and I'm not ready to meditate wiht a greedy, needy family.

Quote I saw today: "Be the change you want to see in the world" Mahatma Gandhi.

8:00PM
I'm lucky if I can even get three entries in each day. I TOTALLY gossiped today, and realized that I did it on the second day of this assignment! It is not even nice gossip. It's the I-really-don't-know-if-it's-true-but-I-heard-from-a-friend kind. Horrible! Worthless. And I remembered that my husband and I were making fun of someone indirectly, just for laughs. It was a personal joke, but the kind that I don't need sitting out there and accidentally coming back up to hurt someone.

so far in this assignment I have found that I am 1) harboring and feeding negative feelings toward someone and 2) I need to practice Compassionate Driving. Maybe I will make it a new goal. As for that certain someone, I need to continue to think nicely about them and refrain fron further horrid speech.

practiced kapalabhati

11:30PM
Neti! trying to get 4 entries in, too. Tomorrow things may be easier. We will see. Phoebe came to see me.

OK, here is a theory...Animals are actually our next incarnation! We re all trying to move toward a more simple existence. Just trying to find bliss through our big, reasoning, thinking brains. I think it's more confusion. What we should strive for is an animal existence. To find bliss, simple life. We just keep descending to a simple organism. Or a simple spark of energy! When atoms fire, do they feel bliss?