Yoga Mala

I am finally reading Yoga Mala by Sri K. Pattabhi Jois. It gives a brief history of Jois, and an overview of the eight limbs of Ashtanga yoga. While reading them, I realized that I have finally memorized the Yamas and NiYamas! So much that I am dreaming about them. :) I've already gone into my thoughts on tapas. I'm going to blog my thoughts about the other sub-limbs over the next few weeks.

Ahimsa, Satya, Asteya, Bramacharya, Aparigraha, Saucha, Santosha, Tapas, Svadhyaya, Isvara pranidhana.

Barking at the moon

I heard a song on my kid's radio station the other day. I instantly loved it. "Barking at the Moon" by Jenny Lewis on the BOLT soundtrack. It made me want to go see the movie. Today, I took the kids and the song is featured a couple times and it is prominent in the "montage" when the dog's transcendence occurs. It made me cry, not in a sad way, but a good-feeling way. I love the singer's voice, I love the tune. I love the lyrics. It has a powerful message of pure being and happiness.

Barking at the Moon - Jenny Lewis
I have got so much to give, I swear I do.
I may not have nine lives, this one feels brand new.
Yes I've lived a good one. I have tried to be true.
There are some things I never realized, till I met you.
How the wind feels on my cheeks, when I'm barking at the moon.

[Chorus]
There is no home like the one you've got, 'cause that home belongs to you.
Woo Woo! Here I come. Woo Woo! Back to you.
There is no home like the one you've got, 'cause that home belongs to you.

Well I was in trouble, bad. I was so confused.
I may not see in color babe, but I sure can feel blue.
I have been a lot of things, they may not all be true.
My experience was so mysterious, till I met you.
Now the sun may rise in the east, but I'm barking at the moon.

[Chorus]

Impatience

With the holidays coming, and the bad weather, I feel like everyone is being very impatient. Driving around, people are in a hurry--should not be with the bad weather. Trying to get in and out of shops with two kids, people have no patience for us. I feel like I have more patience than everyone else today.

Sometimes, with my kids, I am most impatient. Esp trying to get them up in time for school, or get all of their winter gear on. They are the ones with whom I should have the most patience. But I seem to give everyone else the benefit of the doubt, instead of them. I need to have MORE patience with everyone.

Passing of Elmo

My son received a TMX Elmo a couple years ago. My younger son is afraid of it. No matter how we try, he fears Elmo to the point that Elmo was put away for ever. My husband said to sell it.

Last week, I saw a man and woman with their toddler son at Wal-Mart. They were showing their toddler an Elmo doll and talking about getting it, but it was too costly. I overheard, and went over. "We have one if you want it," I said. They looked at me funny, then I explained the situation. I repeated, "It is used, but if you want it, you can have it." I gave her my card.

The next day, an email from her. Yes, they would love to have it. We arranged it, and today I passed the giddy, rolling, annoying Elmo off to family that could give him a wonderful home.

Only after did I realize that was fulfilling an "assignment" from Kathy, to donate something.

Samadhi Saturday Session

The last of the eight limbs of yoga: Samadhi. Bliss. Contemplation. Nirvana? Enlightenment? It may be described as, "a state of spiritual ecstasy in which the mental consciousness leaves the physical body."

When I arrived at our session, Kathy was explaining the koshas (more notes on koshas from August). When you experience the anandamayakosha, it is pure bliss.

More than half of the people in the room were furiously scribbling notes. Another third had notebooks open, some words written. The rest were listening, a few with eyes closed. I quietly listened. I thought about how far I had come in my training. In eight months, the terms were becoming familiar enough so that I knew I had notes and research on the topics already.

There are several schools of thought on samadhi.

• There is the idea that it takes many lifetimes of good deeds and spiritual dedication to experience samadhi-as in Buddhist thought.
• Then there is the idea that anyone, anywhere, can experience samadhi. It can be spontaneous.

There is also many levels of samadhi:

• A level of samadhi the removes all koshas that which a saint will go into for a very long time, several days or weeks, even. They can not function, therefore rely on others to take care of them.
• A level of "walking samadhi" where a person in a state of enlightenment is still aware of other koshas, and using them.
• Circadian samadhi is the level where everyone experiences a few minutes of thought cessation, IE "blank out" and can't remember what just happened. You weren't really taking in any new info, just your physical body was existing.

After discussing samadhi, Kathy explained the 8 limbs of yoga again.

• Yamas (moral codes)
  - Ahimsa (non-harming)
  - Asteya (non-stealing)
  - Aparigraha (non-hoarding, non-greediness)
  - Satya (truthfulness)
  - Brahmacharya (celibacy)
• Niyamas (self-discipline)
  - Saucha (purity, cleanliness)
  - Santosha (contentment)
  - Svadyaya (self-study)
  - Tapas (heat, endurance of extremes)
  - Isvara pranidana (devotion to the divine)
• Asana (postures)
• Pranayama (breath/life-force control)
• Pratyahara (sense withdrawl)
• Dharana (concentration)
• Dhyana (meditation)
• Samadhi (mental bliss)

We practiced with Kathy's guidance for about an hour before lunch. These sessions are great because every once and a while Kathy throws in new postures or gives us things to think about trying in new ways.

After lunch we broke up into groups and discussed moments in our lives where we felt samadhi or recognized a blissful moment. Here are a few that I mentioned:

• Driving for several hours, "blanking out" in the sense that you think "huh, I know I was driving, but not sure what I was just thinking about and now I am further down the road than I thought."
• Once, while getting a massage, I tried meditating during it, focusing on my meditation image (a flame on a white candle in the dark) and realizing that I lost moments while the masseuse went from my feet to my head.

Things that others mentioned:

• Being caught on a boat in a storm and focusing totally on getting to safety. The adrenaline rush after was blissful or a sort.
• Being ina high-intensity sport like climbing.

I asked others what their meditation was. Did they meditate, if so, did they visualize anything in mind's eye? (like I did with the flame).

• Imagine water, or floating in water
• A running mantra
• Airline takeoff mantra (to overcome fear of flying)
  

Kathy reiterated assignments:

1. Name 5 people who you think may have experienced samadhi
2. Name 5 people who influenced your spiritual path
   
3. Read a book (as mentioned before like an autobiography, an ancient text)
4. Eat in the dark
5. Find out the name of someone that does a service for you (like the mailman, garbage collector)
6. Donate food, clothing or something to the needy

Kathy polled the room to see how many people were teaching, if not, why not. Some people said that they did not have the opportunity to teach. Kathy gave ideas on how to teach. She also asked what was keeping them from teaching or anything else they wanted to discuss. One person brought up the fact that she is uncomfortable leading a group to "OM". Kathy said, then don't do it, but the person said that she wanted to do it. It started a discussion of a fear of teaching "wrong". I read the article to them about "To Each Their Own, To Teach Their Own" in Yoga Journal.

We closed today's session with a few assists of Downdog, Uttkatasana, and Virabadrasana I and II. And OMing 12 times (using finger joints to count.)

Thoughts on Tapas

I've been trying to understand the concept of tapas since I started learning the eight limbs of yoga. Tapas seems to have many definitions from "asceticism" to "heat". But the meaning is more about accepting extreme discomfort to purify the body, mind and spirit.

When things such as metals are heated, they are purified. We say that heating the body causes sweat which helps expel toxins from the body. This is a form of physical tapas.

People generally do things that are pleasant or want things that make them feel good. These can become addictions when it begins to cause cravings or you begin to let them control your actions. When a person has an addiction (for me it is chocolate, but for sake of discussion let use cigarettes), they must use tapas to control the addiction. You must control your lust--don't pick up the cigarette--which brings you discomfort of the mind. It can be very difficult for some people who are "weak-minded" to control. Sometimes, they use shortcuts to control the lust, like a nicotine patch. But this is not a true form of tapas because the pleasure is still existing through the drug. To truly "burn" the craving, one must overcome the addition by enduring mental anguish.

A spiritual form of tapas--I have a harder time defining this one. I think an example of spiritual tapas would be the story of the Jews' Exodus from Egypt. Being persecuted for your spiritual beliefs, enduring the painful journey to find a home and live peacefully. For me, a spiritual tapas is just finding the time to devote to divine things, or even find a spiritual teacher! It is easy for me to just forget or do other things. I must force myself to focus on the aspect of spirituality. I wrote earlier that I am having a hard time defining God. I can not put it into succinct words, but I think I have a clear feeling of God. However, because I disagree with rules of most organized religions, it is very hard to find a spiritual leader.

I've wandered a bit from defining tapas. But, it's good to think on these things.

Thankful

Today, and every day,

I am Thankful for my health.
I am Thankful for my two sons--I am Thankful that they are happy and healthy.
I am Thankful for my husband. I am Thankful for his love, attention to me and the boys and him being vigilant in our life and well-being.
I am Thankful for a home and food.
I am Thankful for all those who Lived before me and the divine of the universe that has brought me time experiencing Life.

Dhyana Saturday Session

I am on vacation. I am missing today's Saturday session, but will make it up next year! I hope everyone enjoyed learning about Dhyana, the limb of yoga covering meditation. Om Shanti.

DVD Review: Solar Flow

I recently borrowed Shiva Rae's Solar Flow. I wanted to try a different yoga approach, maybe get new ideas or just learn more about the world of yoga.

It was my introduction to Shiva Rae. She travels a completely different path to the uses of yoga than what I am doing. But it is a nice deviation for when I get into a rut and want to break out for a while. I researched her Web site and found that she does a "Yoga Trance Dance" which seems like fun.

As many reviewers stated, this DVD is not for beginners. It certainly has sequences that beginners can do, but I found that many of her sequences were challenging. And very little explanation, so could be frustrating for beginners. It gives me, and other intermediates, something to work toward and I will incorporate some of what I saw into my practice. And I love the music.

Anti-gravity yoga

I just had to post this piece on anti-gravity yoga. Without laughing.

Vote / Clarification from Satchidananda

A few days ago I posted my comments on Satchidananda's Weekly Words for this week. I disagreed with some of what was said. It turns out that I was not the only one. Here is what was sent in a follow up email:

"Although meant in a spiritual sense, this week's Weekly Words of Wisdom message could be taken out of context from the entirety of Sri Swami Satchidananda's teachings on civic responsibility, as it was kindly pointed out by one reader.

"Particularly because Election Day is Tuesday, November 4, we would like to clarify: Sri Gurudev taught that while we should "Accept everything and not allow anything to disturb our ease," he always reminded us that we cannot complain about our political leaders unless we do our part to make our voices heard by voting. He encouraged all his students to exercise their right to vote, especially in major elections. He said, "Remind yourself of the responsibility that you have to bring a good name to our country, to clean up our mess. Every American has this responsibility. Every one of you can do something about it because our country is built by the people, for the people, of the people."

A situation that repels us

During the Pratyahara Saturday session in September, Kathy asked us to recognize situations where our sense change, such as when we notice something is funny, or a situation that repels us.

Today, I had an instance where I realized something I did wrong. I responded to an email and copied another person to make sure quetsions were covered. Later, I went back to the email and realized there may be things written by the sender to me, that may not sit well with the person I copied. Verbally, I said, "Oh no!" and I quickly buried my head in my hands. The instant everything dawned on me I felt ill. Heat washed over my body and I focused completely on my thoughts, is there any way to take it back? How can I fix this? Well, maybe he won't read the email, and things of that nature.

The fact is it is done. Any trust the original sender may have had in me has been comprimised. There is no taking it back. I can only hope that I am overreacting. And I can learn to be mroe careful with these individuals emails and apologize for being insensitive and acting hastily.

Accept Everything and Be at Ease (really?)

This morning's Weekly Words from Satchidananda were about keeping your peace in times of hardship or struggle.

“Anything may happen. Think that it is a part of the Divine Will, or the Cosmic Law, and accept it: ‘Alright, whatever may happen, I’m not going to lose my peace.’ Probably we have seen hundreds and thousands of things daily happen. Millions and millions of people die from diseases, many people die from accidents, paupers become millionaires overnight and millionaires become paupers. We have seen all these things every day in our daily lives. What is there to wonder about? So, accept things with the feeling, ‘Well, that’s the world, let it happen.’ Just be at ease."

It is easy to say, hard to practice. Especially with the upcoming election, the financial crisis, the war, the uncertainty of our jobs. One must take a "chill pill" so to speak, and find peace in turmoil. Take the time to breathe first, think second, act third will unfold a better result than if you act first, think second. In that case, you may not be able to breathe at all.

I have a hard time with the last part of his inspiration...the fact that 'bad' things happen, we can not change it so follow Bobby McFerrin's advice, "don't worry, be happy". It almost seems that Satchidananda is telling us to be passive and don't interfere when it comes to seeing trouble unfold. I disagree. If some things can be changed, we need to look ahead to sort it out. I agree that some things happen for a reason, but we can do our part in living our lives along a path to bliss. If you chose apathy, you have nothing to complain about so yes, grin and bear it. But if you make choices that walks a path to happiness, your happiness will come to you easier.

Dharana Saturday session

Dharana, or concentration, is the sixth limb of ashtanga yoga. It can be described as "focus with effort" or "continuous attention." Opposite of dharana is conversation, particularly the conversation with yourself, the fluctuations of thoughts that occur in an unpracticed, unfocused mind. Once you clear the conversations and narrow your focus, you begin dharana.

For meditation purposes, dharana is meditation with effort. During meditation, you may fall from dharana into dhyana (meditation without effort) several times as you begin to meditate. My best description of this happening to me was when I had a massage several years ago. I decided to try and meditate--or at least keep a focused mind--during the massage. I wanted to enjoy the massage and not let my busy mind shorten my experience. I put effort into visualizing a flame in my mind's eye. I felt the masseuse working down my legs. I was so intent on my focus that my mind faded as he went to my feet. The next thing I knew, or when my awareness came back to my massage, he was at my head and working on my shoulders. I realized that I missed several moments (minutes?) when I was not there. I believe that I floated from dharana into dhyana (maybe even samadhi?) for those moments.

We practiced our own practice today for an hour. Kathy asked us to be particularly focused in today's practice, squelching any internal conversations or diversions that arise. When I am thinking about what pose I am going to do next, sometimes I find my mind straying on other topics. It probably would have been better to follow the primary series routine, but instead I followed my own class from earlier in the morning. It actually helped keep me focused, and my thoughts off questioning "oh, what is next in primary series" and more on a statement of, "here I am in a pose." Toward the end, I did more restorative poses.

After practicing asana, we practiced meditation. Then a series of nadi shodana with meditation immediately following.

Kathy asked us a few questions: did we find our self moving in and out of an effort of focus during practice? did we find effort in focus during meditation? nadi shodana?

During my asana practice, I felt effortless focus during movement, especially into the asanas I am comfortable. It took more effort to stay focused when I practiced a pose that I have less comfort, less balance. As for meditating, I found it difficult to stay in it, both before and after pranayama. I just wanted to sleep. I had many internal conversations, and although I kept trying to keep them out, they just kept creeping back in.

One of the thoughts was about why it was so hard for me to mediate. I remember the first time I meditated. In a room of other students my Freshman year at UVM. We had a dignified visitor, a monk that was a disciple of the Dalai Lama. In my mind's eye, I held the image of a flame on a white candle (same mind's eye focus point I use today). It was a very focused meditation, but I was able to keep that focus through most of the 20 minutes. I have used that mental image over time, and I find that the older I get, the harder it is to keep focus. It's as though my mind's muscles are not as supple as in my youth--like my body. 15 more years' experience and thoughts and memories are stored and keep breaking through my intent. The worries of children, job, household press out.

Group Discussion
Kathy had us break into groups and discuss what we were teaching and what we would like to teach. Also what concepts would be important for beginners to know or grasp?

Two in my group had been teaching. In a health club setting. Both of us found that we change the name of the class to suit that segment of the population. Athletic yoga or Power yoga.

When Kathy polled the groups, topics such as children's yoga, yoga for people in wheelchairs, yoga for "blue collar" workers (those who have back problems), yoga for pre-skiing warm-up. For children, Kathy mentioned the issue of growth spurts, and keeping that in mind, esp for adolescents.

We discussed how to design a class. Kathy said she builds a class around warm up, standing postures, strengthening (low to ground), flexibility (like forward bends and twists), and inversions (for balance and being aware of your body's relationship in space).

Someone asked about the difference between an early class, late class, short timeframe classes. Earlier classes your muscles and ligaments are not as warm. But you have not accumulated that day's thoughts and worries to instructor can talk less and let the natural focus of clear mind practice. Shorter savasana as their day is just beginning, not ending. In evening classes, longer savasana and you as an instructor may have to talk more and re-focus minds to their practice. Short classes may have to skip poses or not hold as long.

Assists
We practiced assists in parsvottanasana to utthita trikonasana (triangle). Hips square in parsvottanasna and open in triange. Also utthita parsvakonasana (extended side angle) and urdhva dhanurasana (backbend).

Assignments

• Notice when our students are moving from learning a concept to grasping.
• Notice when there is effort on students' poses or when there is a flow and it becomes effortless.
• In addition to our asanas, practice hand mudras, pranayama, dharana
• Eat a meal in complete darkness.
  

We closed with Closing Chant (see menu on right of blog) and chanting the blessing of the Goddess Lakshmi.

Last Power Yoga (Fall)

This morning I taught my last Power Yoga session at my friend's health club for the Fall. I enjoyed this class very much. I am looking forward to the Spring. I was thinking that I would be able to do some classes with them in the winter, but it is doubtful. I think I will focus on my practice for now.